I Am One of Many (a poem for trouble times)

I am one of many children all around the globe,

I am one of many people living happily in my abode.

I am one of many who want peace,

I am one of many who want this violence to cease.

I am one of many who believe in love,

I am one of many who find it from God above.

In trouble times we seek to blame,

But as one of many, I don’t play that game.

I am one of many who look to change

Things that look bad or may seem strange.

I am one of many who care to fight,

With only my heart and words that are right.

I am one of many that pray for a difference,

To change this tolerant temperament.

I am one of many, who are you?

I am one of many praying to see it through!

1 Timothy 2:14

Remind everyone about these things, and command them in God’s presence to stop fighting over words. Such arguments are useless, and they can ruin those who hear them.

Philippians 1:27

Above all, you must live as citizens of heaven, conducting yourselves in a manner worthy of the Good News about Christ.

Hold Onto Things That Matter

I teach Pre-K. In Pre-K, we teach the basic skills to four and five year olds. Skills like: how to eat at a table, with a spoon and sit correctly in a chair, how to talk to other children and adults, how to clean up after yourself, clean up your spills, wash your hands (a million times a day), throw away your trash, play, play with others, sit with a group and listen to the teacher, how to rest quietly, how to play outside, etc.

I serve these children daily and I put 1000% of myself in doing so. I write lesson plans, create craft activities, science projects, schedule meetings and fieldtrips, conference with parents and work with an awesome assistant. By the time I get home, I am tired but happy.

The last thing I want to do when I get home is serve my family. My family consists of two young adult daughters and one 2nd grade grandson. All of the members of my family are old enough to take care of themselves and their needs. But as a mom and a grandma, I serve them as well. I may not give 1000%, but I do give at least 85%.

I cook dinner, wash dishes, take out the trash, fold clothes and put them away and clean the kitchen. At first, it makes me irritated because they could do this themselves and for me, but I know there will be a time when no one is home for me to take care of. I know that one day it will be just me. That’s why I serve my family in this way; serving with my whole heart. I am holding onto the things that matter to me.

1 Peter 4:8-11

Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. 9 Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. 10 Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms. 11 If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.

Trusting God When the Seasons Don’t Change

Wow! Reflecting on the past two years of my life in seasons that I wanted to see change, I saw none. Disappointment, failure, resentment, denial, confusion, anger, and pride all stewed within me over the summer. Just recently and I mean very recently, I realize it wasn’t going to change. What I was doing and where I am doing it at is what and where I’m supposed to be. Let me explain.

I teach school. I love the kids always and I like who I work with. But I don’t like the corporation and sometimes the parents are over-bearing. I have wanted to have a season of change for two years. Every summer, I apply and interview for other teaching positions, but no door opened. I even have been wanted by a principal, but the district decided to go with a more experienced teacher in that grade level. I got so frustrated this past year that I contacted the Human Resource Dept. and talked with them about why I couldn’t get hired. They said that there should be no reason. My file is clean and up to date.

Eventually, I just gave up. I got tired of fighting with God about what he wanted me to do. I got tired of trying to open those doors that are closed for a reason that I may never know. I got tired of wanting something so bad that He didn’t want me to have. I got tired of feeling defeated when I could have felt like a winner.

I wanted to be God’s good girl. I wanted to trust Him, to be content where I am, to have mustard seed faith, to be prayerful, to be obedient, and to worship Him only. I wanted our daddy and daughter relationship to be fruitful and not painful. I wanted Him to give me what I wanted and if not, I threw a temper-tantrum and felt miserable. He still said NO!

So I let go! I let go of being in control. I let go of the hurt and pain of feeling defeated. I let go of denial and rejection. I let go of being disappointed and confused. I let go resentment and anger. AND when I let go, I felt better, lighter, calmer, happier, I felt FREE! When people asked how I was doing, I said, “I’m great” and I really felt great. Wow! I haven’t felt GREAT in a long time and truly meant it.

A scripture that was a memory on my Facebook page a few days ago pop up and reminded me of how I need to live in a season that doesn’t change:

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3: 5-6

Trust Him, believe Him, love Him, obey Him and let Him lead You! We will never have all the answers and we will never get our own way. God knows what’s best for us and even if we struggle with Him to find it, He will still love us and want us and be with us. I know, because I am His and He is mine!

 

My Teacher’s Salary is Enough if:

I don’t have a car payment or any major car expenses.

I don’t go anywhere on the weekends or take a vacation.

I don’t go to the Doctor, Dentist or buy medicine.

I don’t celebrate any holidays, birthdays, weddings or baby showers.

I don’t eat out ever or entertain guests.

I don’t buy new clothes for me and my children.

I don’t have to pay for childcare, diapers or school supplies.

I don’t turn up the heat or turn down the AC.

I don’t mind working a second job and a summer job to make ends meet.

I don’t become a single parent raising children on my own without any other income.

(Oh, that is me!)

If I know that regardless of the money not made by a Teacher, my ultimate goal is to love, support, teach and give dreams to my students, THEN and only then is my Teacher’s salary enough.